Christmas

Well, Christmas is over.  I spent four days at my older sister's house in Tacoma, Washington, so my whole family was together.  Both my sisters, my brother-in-law, my parents, my niece and nephew, and my Aunt were there.  As usual, the whole food issue was stressful and I did struggle.  However, over all, I think it went okay and better than other years.  I worked hard to stay present and participate.  I ate with everyone else, I went to my nephew's piano concert, I tried to have conversation and help out when I could.  I find it frustrating that my ED thoughts still interfere and pull me away from things and I also find long periods of conversation trying.  I long for a time when these things won't feel like such an effort and I can just enjoy being present.  I so want the coming year to be different.  I pray that the treatment journey I embark on brings a lasting change that allows me to be the person I so want to be.